What the heck is wrong with me?

2008-05-10T16:27:00.002+08:00

im in those low self esteem moments. I wish to escape and walk by myself along the beach, reflecting back on things. In these times, i really wish to change myself to become a better person. Im not perfect and i really have alot of flaws. God, i wanna find my true self and enjoy every day of my life with my loved ones. This stupid thing shouldnt be an obstruction. Plus, i've done many many many wrong things. I wish to make it up for all of it.

go sarah! =) you can do it.

The confront

2008-05-06T00:23:00.003+08:00

Goodness!!! Seriously, im like ughhhh grrrrr freaking frustrated at my mum!! why can't i even use the computer after i study!?!! omg! im like fuming inside right now. i've already studied right!
you said playing the comp can wait till after exams right?!?? for goodness sake! i need time to relax myself right!! You know that i dont sleep that early and i wannt to check out something on the net. IT'S NOT CHATTING FOR GOODNESS SAKE! ahhhh...!! That sentence! it's playing over &over in mind. 'tak habis-habis ngan chat!'
i know i did the mistake in p6 and therefore i regret it. Honestly speaking, i regret slacking like one of a kind last time. BUT, i still have the conscience in my mind to not repeat it again!
YOU have to understand me pls!
I work this way and i'll try to adjust myself to your expectations, but pls give me space okey!

& when i say 'sekejap'/awhile,
maybe it'll be like quite long sometimes. but how do you expect me to use the computer for AWHILE when you keep coming out, nagging and threatening me to switch it offf?!!
it's reasonable right?! think it over!

yeeeeeeeeeee!

im done expressing myself now.

A sleepless night.

2008-05-05T02:08:00.003+08:00

Today, and like today only for this week will i keep myself awake to prepare for exams! like hardworking right? eh, it's not like, cause i am already hardworking! heh! chehhhh. =D

i DONT WANNA HAVE THOSE FUGLY EYEBAGS! But i'll do it for my friend! i'll accompany her through the night okey! Awwww,im such a good friend! Haha. i hope that i just wont doze off. That'll be like so stupid/bueh! +++wasting electricity! for goodness sake, muyassarah was once an energy buster in pri sch. Thus, she must be a good role model to her fellow friends. =DDDDDD teng-dedede-deng! I MUST HELP THE WORLD IN CONQUERING THE ISSUE ON GLOBAL WARMING! *foom! there i go flying off!*

Pls Give me & my grp of burners of midnight oil luck in keeping our eyes awake! THANKS!

that SUPER-Fun day with the best people!

2008-05-03T23:18:00.007+08:00

HELLO visitors! hehe

First thing today, i reached faridah dolmat's hse 40 mins past 11. There was supposed to be tution at 11, but heh! i was 40 mins late! SUPER-DOOPER late comer kan?! =D

But guess what? there was no tuition! Being the cute belo that i am, I didnt read the msg sent. =) stoops! Nevertheless, fari's hospitality was great as ever! thank you kueh tat! syg kamu!

And then! the wonderful saviour for the day asked me out to study. Yes, she! She was the one who made this day of my life so great! ahah! dramatic nye sarah! takpe, buat orang terharu sikit! teng de de deng . she's SAKINAH BINTE LUTFI!=D

If not for you, my day wouldnt have been that great!

So, it started at macs where i met those two humans named khairi and kin. I had a hard time searching for them tau, i searched high and low mcm kat jungle! hehe. maknenye, korang monyet ah! heh! Ironically, they were just infront of my eyes. PATHETIC! Then, kendrick came and we took off to esplanade! weeeheee!

&Mind you! we did study okey!=) every single one of us even though someone was pondering
away about somethings. The art students did their prep work while ken revised his chem and I went through my physics workbook half-filled with teacher's model answers!
SUCCESS! yeahhhey! we actually did our work =D

After that, we headed to macs to fulfill ken's dying stomach's wish. Can you believe it that he eats fries with triple the extra salt and still be a healthy runner?! damn! he's weird! & he's figure! cantik la! mcm girl! hehe! &dengbongsbings ! I nearly got lost! this means tht im still kid, you know! wooh! still young! Next stop! SINGAPORE FLYER *like the mrt's announcement tone*

yeee! funny! =) That place was like super preety! & the wheel was like SUPER GIGANTIC, i tell you! I wonder if it were to drop on me. *visualising* BOOM! gosh, i'll be like some cheese prata on the ground, still preety as ever! hah!

It was sad to leave that beautiful place, but byebye! hehe. No tears, sorry! =)

Some funny things happened along the way! Kin....! you know what i mean! haha! You gullible one of a kind! muahhahaha! In sembawang, we went into the long-lost arcade. IT WAS FUN!
kendrick sent us home! and booom home sweet home!

+ chatting session with the dodobird! crapshit! hehe

lovvvvvvveeeeeeeee today! kay im sleepy. chiaoz.

im so happy that i can faint any time, and dream of him till im awake 100yrs later! =)

2008-04-09T00:38:00.001+08:00

AKU SUKE DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3<3<3<3

2008-03-15T01:56:00.003+08:00

today, was on the whole great! i loved it!=)

It started when i woke up surprisingly early at ard 11. early right!? thank you! hehe. Later on in the afternoon, i met up with the kinno & neutron to have a swim. HOWEVER, it turned out tht i had to swim alone as kin was having her stubborn irritating morning flu which didnt go away and neutron aishah who didnt want to get dark!
ape da korang!!! aku kene jadi loner psl ni...sampai hati ..
haha.

Ohmygoodness, the swim was the shortest one i've ever had. it was like less than an hour!
(I hope my hair wasnt that urgh fugly when i was in the pool seh! malu ah...hehe)
But i wouldnt wish to swim any longer cause i was alone. Ofcourse it wasnt fun.
&&i got darker after tht!
ishh. dah tak even la skin aku niii.. sedihh.
takpe!takpe! aku masih cantik! hahahahhaa!

After that, my spirits were down. This brain la! menyampah! hehe
Sorry tau korang, lagi2 neutron sebab tak buat handshake kite btol2. maaf!

Then, kin and me were left after aishah left.
We headed to toa pa yoh! Tok payoh!! Ala...tok PAYUNG kan sedap?!haha
While eating, we chatted and i got to know what i've been missing.
terkejut siot!!mangkok la sehh. kay takpe..aku dah tengah practice ni.
nak tahu practice ape?
tak payah tahu la. hehe

jeng jengjeng!
fari came to take my oh-so-marvellous beg to flaunt it tmr! gdluck fari. hehe
even more gd luck to her love for the selections.GOODLUCK! =D
From there, i saw two other ai netballers! Wooohh! they were the wonderful eyka & syahira!
korang came up to my door-step! terharu aku org2 besar ni datang ke rumah aku.
blom ke dalam kan?! kalau ke dalam, mulut mesti ternganga air liur boleh ditadah! hehe.rhyme la! TAU ASL?
CANTIK TU PSL! haha

kay dah! adios =)

my first ever post! im excited =))

2007-12-14T21:16:00.000+08:00

Im writing this post unknowingly what exactly to write about! ahh..ahh...i need to plan la seh!
Hopefully i wont give readers out there a boring wasteful experience by reading this...So, give me luck ppl!